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If anyone was to ask me what are the two banes in a human's life, I would reply without hesitation, fear and failure.

Any human being, irregardless of gender, age, race or religion, will definitely have a phobia about something. From concrete substance to abstract subjects, there must be something. Some fear insects, water or clowns while others fear love, heights or loneliness. Fear by itself is harmless, but the actions and feelings fear induces in the person is lethal. At best, it leads to emotional attacks; at worst, extreme reactions, sometimes, even death.

In the face of fear, the basic human reaction is physical rejection. If it does not go away, stronger emotional rejection ensues. Still there? Things are going to get messy.

Fear is so deadly, how about failure? Should not be any worse, should it?

Think twice if that's what you think, because failure is as dangerous, if not more, than fear. Some people take failure with a pinch of salt. Others, perhaps not. In this rat-race world of never-ending competitions and power struggles to reach the top of the social ladder, failure is unacceptable. A fall from grace is almost akin to committing a social crime. Don't agree?

Have your parents not compare you to other kids academically, artistically, behaviourally, aesthetically, musically, morally and ...? Have your parents not chided you for not performing as well as some other random people's children? Have you yourself not compare your material assets to those of your friends?

From young, everyday we are comparing and being compared. As we grow older, we start to compare more and more things, from studies to sports to arts to looks to dressing to boyfriends (yes boyfriends!) to looks to jobs to salaries to housings to cars to credit cards to club memberships to recreational interests to kids to their schools to their performances to their jobs to how well they treat you to EVERYTHING!

Everyday, we attempt with our utmost abilities to outdo, outshine and outwit others and when we succeed, we pretend to be nonchalant when in fact, we are smirking and whooping for joy in our hearts.

It is this constant pursue of success and victory that feeds our desire to reach the top. That's when failure becomes something you abhor and refuse to consider. That is when, if you ever fail, you either stay down forever or you swear to go even higher, and the cycle continues.

Overtime, fear and failure will fuse to become human's ultimate destroyer.

Fear of Failure.

1. Urban Decay Eyeshadow Primer (ON ITS WAY!!!)
2. Everyday Mineral Loose Powder (GETTING IT LATER!!)
3. Make-up brushes from E.L.F (Waiting for the roadshow, then got SALE)
4. Toner
5. Concealer from either MAC or Loreal.
6. Big mega gigantic hair band to keep the hair out of my face when doing facial routine or make-up
7. Revlon BN foundation (Still thinking)
8. Coastal Scents 88 colours shimmering pallette
9. Coastal Scents 88 colours matte pallette
10. More sleep

T.B.C

I just watched this video, a video that made my heart wench and bleed, a video that made me tear. Baby P was abused and tortured to death by his stepfather, and he was only 17 months old. An innocent boy with golden curls and starry blue eyes had died. A 17 month old baby who endured suffering a 37 years old man would never.

the shock i had when i watched it was...shocking. it left me thinking how inhumane and cruel the stepfather was to hurt a baby like that, and more so how a mother could stand by and do nothing while watching her son abused and tortured. in fact, i would blame the mother more than the stepfather. why give birth to him when you are not going to protect him? does the 9 months mean nothing? is he not your flesh and blood? to allow a man to inflict such pain on your little one, does it not ache your heart?

perhaps it's because i am from a single parent family, i feel a lot for single mothers and children. i understand the pain both parent and child undergo which is why i am so angry with baby p's mother. no doubt one should not kill the child, but if you are incapable of providing the child with love and concern, then don't bring him into the world. if you are unable to protect him, then let him stay safe in the maker's arms. it's not a sin to be a single parent; it's not a fault to be unsure of how to be a good parent; it's not a crime if you cannot provide the child with quality living; because you can always learn and earn. But it's a grave mistake if you bring the child into the world and let him suffer, all the more so when you do nothing to prevent or stop it.

i hope the guilt of killing your own son lives with you forever, and that it will devour you.

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